Thanks for nothing.

Today i was so happy coming home, i saw mail and it was the forms from the Hunter Net training company. i was so happy, words could not describe my feelings. You were the first person i called, even before my parents YOU were the first to know. i thought it wud be nice for us to have dinner together and be happy a small simple but HAPPY dinner together, nothing big, just me and u. i think i sat there for 2hrs waiting i think it was. u dont know how hungry i was from the work that i did today, walking around in the 30+ degree heat in the sun delivering pamphlets. I was so happy we could celebrate but after some time i lost that feeling, im sorry. i know you were with ur friend and her sister cause she was down, but i cant accept it i dont know why, im sorry, call me whateva but how depressed i was, tears fell as i drove home and they fall this moment while i type this. Its not your fault its mine.