40 years

So i had a booking tonight and it was an anniversary for a elderly couple. it was their 40th anniversary and i thought to myself at that instant, i wonder if i will last 40 years with the one i love or will i be dead by then. Although there are many others who have had a relationship last longer than this, but for some reason the booking tonight really touched me.
i cant really think about that sort of stuff atm anyway, since i dont really even have a girlfriend *sighs* that is one thing though. looks like this year im going to go back to the usual self and have a lonely New Years Eve. Even though last year i had a good time with michelle. Sure i would like to spend it with someone...but who ? im not really into anyone atm and even if i am she is far far away from here to even hope.
i am slightly thinking to myself that i want to be able to spend it with someone, but with who ? i dont know *sigh*