Is it worth it?

If something is hard to get does that mean that you should give up? Or does it mean that when you achieve what you want it makes it more worthwhile. I believe that yes if something takes you alot of effort to achieve it then when you have accomplished your goal then it makes you feel more impressed of your achievements.

结婚 - 不是结，就是分。

Energy tablets that suppress all of my feelings and emotions. they give me the feeling of unlimited power and that anything is possible.
代价？ suppressed appetite and emotions. sleeplessness and occasionally wanting to vomit and nosebleeds. Side effects internally causing long term damage unable to be repaired.
效果？ within 2 months i have managed to double what i could lift at the gym from when i first started.

If you asked me why i suddenly wanted to talk with you i would reply that i dont really know. but just inside me really wanted to speak with you. I really wanted to ask for a second chance but when i heard that you have moved on and dont want to think about relationships anymore i knew that i should not mention it. although i told you that i had said everything i wanted to. that was the one thing that i didnt say. to hear that you are happy and that all is well makes me happy for you. from the moment that we took separate paths, your future and everything for you went uphill. career. strengthened personality and i see that you have become stronger. As for me ? i went downhill. i became more addicted to drinking, drinking any chance that i had. i became more addicted to gambling. started smoking and others that i dont even want to mention here. driving recklessly and speeding as it gives me the rush of adrenaline. flirting and playing around for No strings attached.
You said you dont hate me for what i did. but what you believe is that your sad that i gave up so easily.

There is no one else to blame now, but i blame myself for giving up so easily. And i guess i dont deserve a second chance. If i loved you enough i wouldnt have given up so easily.